is it wrong to want almost more than anything else for someone to just shut the fuck up? To sleep maybe for the rest of your life?
I can’t really stand a lot of people right now. Top of the list are my mom and ex – bd. they are both driving me crazy. my mom with her constant slights. dragging up every insecurity. it’s no wonder that I feel like shit about myself. that’s all she ever does is say shitty things.
Yesterday was pretty much the same. That’s why I didn’t write. I just really didn’t want to think about it.
Of course today no i can’t.
I chatted via email with fling- concert guy today. he can tell that im miserable by my posts. which really is a shame because i was trying to hard the last few days to seem happy.
I need more. More meds, more help, more money, more time…
what would i do with all these wondrous things? Be Happy.
sometimes you think it’s enough, other times you think it will never be enough.