I’m so tired. I work so hard and do my best with everything I do. Still I’m constantly being pushed down.
It gets to the point you don’t even want to hope, I had hope for today. then it got fucked with and fucked with and fucked with.
I know, I know push though it. don’t let people effect you. And I try not to. But sometimes how do you fight when people are attacking the weakest things.
I’m thinking acelie’s heal, but I feel like I’m nothing but weaknesses. I feel like people have torn me down to the point there is nothing left. and there is no one to help and nothing I can do.
I just wish i was dead. I have wanted to stay alive for my son, but I’m beginning to think he’d be better without me.